Get to it!

That's the motto for this week. There are a tonne of things that need to be done and I'm seriously running out of time. I don't like feeling this way and I'm going to change the way I feel. Buckle up! I'm going to capitalize on every moment I have to make sure that I can get what has to be done done. What a list (that I haven't even written down yet!). I'm listening to the ideas as they float around inside my mind. Me oh my! so here I am, blogging - productive ;-)
I finally finished reading Eat, Pray, Love and can't understand what took me so long to get to the end. It was such an inspiring story. I can't wait to read the next edition (coming in early 2009 hopefully in paperback). I am eager to pick up another novel and plug away BUT I can't let it interfere with the pounds of reading that I need to keep up with for my course. Too bad accounting has to be just a slice on the dry side and in a large hardcover textbook. If they could spice it up just a shake and compact it into a single-hand-holdable-novel type of medium, I am sure I would be that much more enthusiastic about it.
I've started a knitting project and am completely excited. I love this pattern and I really like the yarn that I've chosen. A dark royal purple colour. I'm going to need to waltz out soon enough to pick up an accent colour or perhaps just another ball of the purple as I know I won't have enough to finish the project. We'll see...
Kamila is starting to fuss. She just looks oh-so-sad and in need of a hug and about a million kisses :) plus I'm pretty sure I can hear a novel or two calling to me from my bedside table. Which tale to choose next?
I'm pretty sure I'll be back soon enough. Let's do this. Yes, I'm ready!

Dreams part deux

Different ones today. Today is for the dreams you see when you're awake. The wishes you make for yourself.
What are you willing to sacrifice to watch someone else live their dream? If you knew someone was sacrificing their dreams so you could live yours, how would you feel? Would your dreams be different? Is there ever a middle? A halfway point in which everyone can be happy? I sit and think of the dreams I've known and wonder if the conversations were real or just words spoken on the wings of a butterfly in erratic flight. Words sung into a summer's breeze. Truths were buried inside words strung together to make phrases, sentences, conversations. Was I so naive to believe or is it you blinded by a vision that is not your own?
To coin a phrase from Disney's Robots, "A dream that you don't fight for can haunt you for the rest of your life."
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My great-aunt got her call, grew her wings, and flew to heaven this week. I am happy she is in peace and not pain. I am selfishly sad. I continue to steal moments to grieve. Bless her soul and all her wonderfulness. She will always be amazing and an inspiration to me.
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Thanks Saturday! Thank you for being today. And beautiful. And mine. Yesterday was productive. I kicked some serious tail on my missions. YES TO THAT! Today was pretty good, too. I'm alive. The kids and i did some visiting, some shopping, and some connecting. Steven and I caught a flick together, ate popcorn, and just hung out. A big applause to perfect Kamila who was so sweet and let us do that. An extra big applause to Steven for being so cool. The rest of today will be filled with remembering and honouring and love. Sweet wonderful love.
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So many emotions, so quickly, so strong. I have to find my ready.

Dreams

I've been having bizarre dreams these last few nights. The first two i understood (or so i think). The one from last night has had me buggin' all day. Aquariums with swimming piranhas and swimming frogs. They were in separate tanks but all together. i definitely need to do some digging.
Please, i need courage.

Wondering

why Life throws moments like this one at me. I'm searching within my soul for answers i'm sure i can see but i just don't want to admit that i see or accept that they are.
Please send me courage. Teach me to learn to let go.

Mission: September

September is looking like this for me. On your mark, get set, MISSIONS:

1. Keep taking pics. I will get better, i know it!
2. Get laundry put away and organize baskets.
3. Stay on top of studying.
4. Complete the birth announcements.
5. Book the baptism.
6. Celebrate out 1st anniversary.
7. Create 2 picture boards.
8. Walk every day.
9. Blog at least once every week.
10. Create my to do board.
11. Read one full novel for fun and my sanity. Candidates this month are The Glass House, The Bone Garden, Lisey's Story, Water for Elephants, and The Road.
12. Complete my Secret Mission for some wonderfully awesome people. Stay tuned. I'm sure this will make the blog.
13. Create ONE FULL scrapbook page layout and put it in an album.
14. Organize the misc. living room tub and mantle.
15. Prepare my xmas planning list.
16. Find my kitchen table and all 4 chairs that belong with it. Set up the high chair.

Yikes! Seems like a whole lotta jazz when i look at it but it all seems possible. Time management. That's what it's about right now. So without further ado, i'm ready!

Mission: August

A few posts back i'd posted a mini-mission list for the month. Here's the recap and comments:

Mission: Pack my hospital bag (weird how everything for the baby is ready but i have no clue what i need). This can be crossed off. I got everything together and remembered to take it all with me to the hospital. Aside from needing some food (our hosp cuisine was rancid!), i had everything i needed. WOOT!
Mission: Put my living room and dining room back together. Either find a home for everything or ship it off to another home. Both rooms were put back together and rearranged. YES! The "home or gone" i'm still working on. It's more an isolated tub of mish mash that has me overwhelmed. This is going to be done in September.
Mission: Get the laundry caught up including that awful basket of socks that just seems to keep getting bigger.It WAS caught up. I now have a few loads on the go and a few pretty baskets all folded and waiting to be put away. Something so simple. Get my lazy butt going on this. C'mon now.
Mission: TAKE MORE PICTURES! Check check check! Not only am i taking more pictures, my little mister is snap happy and I LOVE IT! I even took my own birth announcement pic which i have fallen in love with.
Mission: Have Baby. YES! I did it - drug-free - and i learned so much about me and some of the people that i love most. Amazing. WOOT WOOT WOOT
Mission: Read more. Well, i've certainly bought more books. I'm struggling to get to the end of Eat, Pray, Love and don't understand why. It is such a beautiful book. Such raw emotion, real words, beauty. I have also started digging away at my textbook. Woo hoo!

That's it, that's all. I am happy with what i got done. I will attack a whole new set of missions for September. Perhaps some that are slightly more ambitious, perhaps a few that are slightly slack. Ready ready ready.

Sweet August

What a sweet month! so filled with surprises, change and love. Our new addition joined us on August 18 and has filled our world with more everything. We shifted into slow gear and have enjoyed all of the moments over the last two weeks. So much wonder and amazement. So much love.
With September just a few hours away, it's time to kick it up into high gear. Rock the place! Start a party. JAZZ HANDS...Let's see them, folks. September means school is back for another round. My little man is into his last year of nursery - and to think it was only yesterday that he and i walked hand in hand to his first "try-it-out" day. I'm back into a course AND I WILL succeed. This should be a combo course for me - half theory, half hands-on application of learning. I think this is more my thing. Straight theory or straight hands on isn't so much up my alley. Progress will be posted. Crack out the pom poms, cheer me along :)
Stay tuned for a September Goals list to be posted. I'm working on one.
Thanks for a great month, August 2008! You are pasted in my heart forever.
September, watch out, I'm ready!

Stick a fork in me

i'm done! Yes, this oven is in cool down mode. It's time to just take the baking out and let it relax for a while. 9 months is a long time to be cooking something up. C'mon baby of mine. We're all anxious to hold you, kiss you, cuddle you, know you.

i've registered for school again. AND I WILL SUCCEED! i'm ready to be disciplined the way i know i can be. i'm ready to bust my tail and soak up everything. and i will get a jump start on the course for septemeber. READY!

i've reorganized a bookshelf. it looks more composed. perhaps a pic will eventually make it up here. i didn't take a before shot. it was a disaster. i had rather heavy items on the middle shelf and the clips that held the shelf up busted. Imagine the bookslide! it's all right now though. I improvised for new clips (screws worked...woo hoo!), rethought the layout, and am beyond pleased with the outcome. Yes! i am happy when things work.

i have some laundry glaring at me from the ironing board. there are also some school things that need to get organized sitting on my table. they are competing with the laundry for my attention. i'm going to move. Shake it shake it!

Pick at me

yes please. Pick at me. I'm very pregnant with no immediate end in sight although the official due date is this week.
it is absolutely possible that i'm ultra emotional right now and it feels like full time work to keep things under control. at least i think i'm doing a pretty ok job here. today, one person after the next has just been rubbing at me the right way of wrong. do not call to bitch at me about my son. he is mine. do not call to bitch at me about my husband. he is mine. do not tell me anything that contradicts anything you may have previously led me to believe. i may snap.

Sneak attack

YACK! Hi August! What a nice surprise. I woke up yesterday knowing full well that it was the start of a new wonderful month only to forget about it as the day wore along. This month is jam packed with excitement. Our new person is scheduled to arrive any day now. How crazy cool is that? There is still so much that i need to do! Good grief.
Now i know i fell off the Mission train a while ago but, a new month is great for a fresh start. So, here's a list of Missions for me and August. We will succeed together.
Mission: Pack my hospital bag (weird how everything for the baby is ready but i have no clue what i need).
Mission: Put my livingroom and diningroom back together. Either find a home for everything or ship it off to another home.
Mission: Get the laundry caught up including that awful basket of socks that just seems to keep getting bigger.
Mission: TAKE MORE PICTURES!
Mission: Have Baby.
Mission: Read more.
Now, if the order of my August missions as i've outlined here have some weird way of influencing the way they will happen in Life then i'd best be getting my tail moving. This baby needs to come out.
Let's do this, i'm ready!